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Tranz Trances, Session 5

I actually thought I was done with this series and had said what I needed to say, but then I opened the Daily Iowan, the student rag here at the University of Iowa, and read this stunning editorial that calls for an end to Title lX protections for females in order to accommodate people who think they are the opposite sex from the one they were born as. If I had any doubt that the tranz fad is all about misogyny and the attempt to terrorize women and invade our hard won private space and generally erase us and the gains we have made in the legal sphere, then this piece of yellow journalism clears away those doubts.

The very worst part of this is that I can’t get anyone in the UI community or this paper to answer any of my questions about the tranz phenomenon. It’s like I entered the Twilight Zone and I am surrounded by the Gender Zombies. Appparently now that we are no longer distinguishable from one another and are sexually interchangeble there is no longer a problem with male privilege, male violence against women or the thousands of ways that that people who are born with “front holes” are harassed, diminished, paid less for the same work, and subject to forced pregnancy and “sex work.” Tranzing non-gender-conforming kids is a progressive idea and anyone who disagrees and wonders whether a child can give informed consent to poisonous sterilizing hormones and mutilating plastic surgery is a gay-bashing bigot who does not deserve the dignity of a reply.

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EDITORIAL: TITLE IX, RIGHTS, AND A VACANT SUPREME COURT SEAT

The Supreme Court is set to hear a potentially landmark case in the battle for LGBTQ rights. This is the second major case the Supreme Court has heard with regards to the LGBTQ community in the past two years (the first being the mandate that all U.S. states legalize same-sex marriage).

The upcoming case deals with the increasingly ubiquitous debate over public restrooms. According to NPR, the case, Gloucester County School Board v. Grimm, involves a transgender boy who was able to use the boy’s restroom as a freshman in high school until some parents complained. As a result,  the School Board adopted a policy requiring students to use the restrooms corresponding with their biological sex or a separate single-stall restroom.

In April, the U.S. Court of Appeals for the 4th District agreed to see the case. Gloucester County then petitioned the court, and justices ruled (5-3) that the School Board did not have to follow the order of the lower court.

According to numerous sources, Grimm’s argument has been that Title IX (the federal law banning sex-based discrimination in schools) protects transgender people as well.

The case becomes interesting because, according to the Washington Post, Title IX may not apply to this scenario. Title IX does not make a comment on gender classification; rather, it comments on the ability of men and women to use specific facilities. Grimm’s case may, therefore, have some difficulty proving a connection to Title IX because Grimm would have to prove that as a male, he is being discriminated against (as opposed to the school debating how he defines his own gender). This is not to say that Grimm does not have a case, but that he may not be able to win on the grounds that the actions of the Gloucester County School Board violated Title IX.

Regardless of whether this case is winnable for Grimm, federal legislation like Fair Housing and Civil Rights could also be affected by the decision.

While the case will not be heard until sometime next year, the implications of this case are massive and are only magnified by the battle currently going on over the ninth Supreme Court seat. This case — taken alone — will have effects on many future cases involving transgender individuals. But given that there may be an impending flip of partisan power on the Supreme Court, the precedent set by this case will inform all future cases involving public expectations, no mater how insensitive of transgendered people.

The weight of this case, therefore, cannot go unnoticed. The actual decision may be several months away, but it is never too early for the Supreme Court to consider the long-lasting impact of its decisions. The Daily Iowan Editorial Board believes it is the Supreme Court’s duty to protect the rights of these Americans, as it finally did last year for other members of the LGBTQ Community.

Perhaps because of the vague language used in Title IX, this could not be the case that opens doors like the gay marriage decisionof last year opened doors for other members of the LGBTQ community. But it is the beginning of a more serious national discussion of openness that has been coming for some time.

That said, we hope the case to rule in favor of Grimm. But it seems this all sits in limbo of who will sit in the ninth seat on the Supreme Court and how that person chooses to interpret Title I.

 My Reply :

You say,”But it is the beginning of a more serious national discussion of openness that has been coming for some time,” but in fact this paper has never once printed any information from anyone who questions the merits and the science behind transgendering people. And whenever I personally try to engage anyone in the UI community on this topic, from RVAP  (Rape victim’s Advocacy Program) to WRAC (Women’s Resource and Action Center) to the GWSS  (Gender, Women and Sexuality Studies) program I am studiously ignored. You mention that ” the precedent set by this case will inform all future cases involving public expectations, no mater how insensitive of transgendered people,” but you say nothing about how abolishing the legal difference between males and females will be far more than simply insensitive to women.

I would like you to present peer-reviewed scientific studies that prove that there is no biological or therefore, legal, difference between males and females and that the socialized gender noms that have been establsihed by patriarchy in order to enforce the second class status of females are inborn characteristics that have more validity than being born XX or XY, that is, as a male or a female with their associated sex organs.

People may be “assigned” a sex ROLE at birth and they may not like that sex ROLE, but this does not therefore mean that they have the “wrong” body. Why am I not allowed to say this?

I would also like to know what not liking your body, such that you want to mutilate yourself in order to appear to be the opposite sex, has to do with being homosexual. Are all transgender people homosexual? If they aren’t, then why are they part of the the gay, lesbian, queer, bisexual political rights cadre? I would be happy to hear what the reasoning behind this is, especially since I am a bisexual, non-gender-conforming grandma and I apparently missed something as this was becoming an issue that I am now being forced to grapple with.

Another problem with your continued advertisement of and normalization of this trend is the way that it affects children. I went along with the trans ideology until I realized that parents were taking their non-gender-conforming kids to shrinks and surgeons and subjecting them to hormone treatments (which can cause cancer and mitochondrial damage as well as sterilizing a child before they really understand what this means) and plastic surgery. That is when I had to put my foot down and speak up.

Being gender-non-conforming is fine with with me. People who don’t conform to patriarchal sex role stetreotypes should not be the targets of male violence. But trivializing and erasing the rights of an entire sex class (women) and trying to shame people like me into silence for questioning whether there is even any science behind this assertion, i.e., that somehow there is no biological difference between men and women and that a person can be born into the wtrong body and needs the ministrations of surgeons and Big Pharma to cure them of this malady, – is just more male privilege at work.

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How testosterone harms the female body

Gay Man Writes About Medicalized Childhood

Erasing Women

Tranz Trances, Session 4

I decided that I would reprint a recent exchange that I had with an individual in the comments section of an article that was published in The Daily Iowan, the student newspaper  at the Unversity of Iowa.:

STRUT-ting In The Park:

276f737800000578-3033363-image-m-476_1428680465442Individuals of all shapes, sizes, genders, and sexual orientations strutted down a runway in heels in Hubbard Park on Thursday night for a good cause.

STRUT, a fashion show sponsored by Gamma Rho Lambda, University of Iowa Trans Alliance, Delta Lambda Phi, oSTEM (Out in STEM), and Spectrum UI gave people the opportunity to compete in a fashion show, with proceeds going to support United Action for Youth, a nonprofit that provides youths with a safe space and support in the area and have specific support for the LGBTQ community.

Individuals could pay $3 to wear heels and walk the runway or pay $10 to compete in categories including Hawkeye Pride, Executive Realness, Futuristic Fantasy, Throwback Thursday, Frightening Fierceness, and Glamazonian Glitter Extravaganza.

“We were actually inspired by a documentary, Paris is Burning. It’s a documentary that follows this idea of ball culture, which is a piece of queer history,” said Ben Ross, the president of Delta Lambda Phi. “Basically, people would get together and perform in various categories in celebration of being queer, and the documentary kind of profiles that.”

Ross said the other events of the week have been well-attended and supported.

“We connect teens to the community through art and music, and we provide a safe space — a place where people can express themselves and feel safe doing so,” said Jamie Ellis, a youth-development specialist for the United Action for Youth.

Ellis said it’s important to provide support and listen to LGBTQ youth, because it can be a challenging time in life.

Lydia Zhu, the winner of the first part of the STRUT competition, said she came to the event to support a good cause and a great community. It was not her first time on the runway.

“I was part of the Walk it Out board for the past few years at the University of Iowa, so I have some experience with stage walking,” she said.

Her best advice to people ready to strut down the runway is to “Be confident in yourself, because it shows. As long as you’re confident, other people will feel it, too.”

This is my comment and replies to my comment:

Jeanne Smith:
I am a 63 year old grandmother. In 1985 I sued my father for sexually assaulting me for the first 12 years of my life. I lost the suit in courts run by men, but I went to the legislature and changed the laws on child sexual abuse. I was part of the movement to shelter battered and raped women from the 70’s onward. It’s from this perspective that I am writing.

I wonder how the college and Iowa City community would feel about a group of white men who dressed in blackface and sang spirituals and ragtime all the while saying it was a celebration of their own culture. I believe people would find it offensive to celebrate the oppression of former slaves and current victims of police violence.

woman-falling-off-heelsThe stereotypes that this group is so cheerfully co-optating and celebrating are formulated by men to suit men’s tastes. Male privilege is what determines fashions and appropriate behavior for females. Male privilege creates and enforces what is known as “femininity.” Being feminine has nothing to do with being female. The “fashion” of high heels is all-of-a-piece with the “fashion” of female footbinding. We used to call high heels “rape shoes” because they impede a woman’s ability to avoid assault by running away.

Rape culture is rampant on college campuses. I am wondering why it’s ok to celebrate rape culture and the fetishization of female body parts. This type of display by groups that are supposedly all about sexual freedom makes me believe that it’s just the same old patriarchy in a dress. In order to create sexual equality between men and women so that gender roles become irrelevant we need to work toward the passage of an Equal Rights Amendment for women, ensure equal pay, childcare and reproductive freedom for women, and an end to rape culture. It’s time to shrink male privilege, not put on high heels and stagger down a runway.

Nolan Petersen: Vice Chair at Delta Lambda Phi Alumni Association:
This event was sponsored by a number of organizations, including organizations of women. Additionally, heels are not exclusively female, and to present them as such is ignorant of the history female impersonation and cross-dressing have in the queer community.
And finally, this was a fundraiser for a local youth organization which supports young people in the community who are gender or sexuality minorities, and if you have a problem with a drag show for charity then perhaps you are the one with priorities in the wrong place.

Nolan Petersen:
Also, as someone who wants to say that being feminine is much more than fashion, you are putting a lot of emphasis in how wearing heels is co-opting femininity, when in fact many of the gay men of which put together this event wear heels in their personal lives because gender normative clothing is an exhausting and outdated cultural restriction.

I don’t disagree, though, that men have put expectations on women and the female body in the form of fashion ‘rules’ and expectations, which have harmed and assaulted women for generations. This event, however, was pulling from the gender queering of drag, not the normative and damaging aspects of male-dominated ‘women’s fashion’s.

Jeanne Smith:
Nolan Petersen ,The fact that women were involved just proves Mary Daly’s contention about female tokens, i.e., fembots who parrot the patriarchal line: “Look! They do it to themselves!” And thus men are absolved of their responsibility for rape culture.

 Jeanne Smith:

https://www.acpeds.org/…/gender-ideology-harms-children

Jeanne Smith:

https://transwidow.wordpress.com/…/female-erasure…/

Editor Ruth Barrett writes: “This anthology brings together voices of more than forty six contributors celebrating female embodiment while exploring deeper issues of misogyny, violence and sexism in gender identity politics today, demonstrating the intentional silencing and erasure of living female realities.

These perspectives come at a time when gender politics and profits from an emerging medical transgenderism industry for children, teens, and adults inhibits our ability to have meaningful discussions about sex, gender, changing laws that have provided sex-based protections for women and girls, and the re-framing of language that erases females as a distinct biological class.

Through researched articles, essays, first-hand experience, story telling, and verse, these voices are needed to ignite the national conversation about the politics of gender-identity as a backlash to feminist goals of liberation from gender stereotypes, oppression and sexual violence.”

In different voices, this compendium of articles shows how transgenderism is erasing the reality of what it means to be a woman. There are some marvelous essays in Female Erasure that make this book the recent go-to analysis of gender identity as “an inherently misogynist idea.” Read the writings by medical and psychological professionals who tell us about the wrongs their professions have inflicted on transitioners, including children; the accounts of women caught in the vicious cycle of transitioning and the stories of young lesbians pressured to be ABF (Anything But Female); and the narratives of wives of men who would be women, wives who learned the hard way that “women are [not] actually real to these men.” These are only a few of the meaningful essays in this anthology that address the current travesty of gender identity orthodoxy. ~ Janice G. Raymond

Michelle Noonan:
Nolan Petersen
You should have said thank you to Jeanne. Thank you Jeanne for advocating for and supporting the many women you have over the years. Thank you Jeanne for ensuring that women were safe.
Thank you Jeanne. It is our fore sisters that have allowed current women to continue to fight patriarchy. Thank you. From one sister to another.

Jeanne Smith:
Transplaining Blows!

Nolan Petersen:
Transplaining? Yeah, your erasure of Trans identifies and Trans women in history is so progressive and ultra feminist of you. And Michelle, I only thank people who don’t insist on erasing the existence of my queer Brothers and Sisters to make a point–which Jeanne couldn’t help herself from doing. I won’t stand by and let bigoted womyn ruin an event which was created to celebrate diversity, support young, queer youth, and pay homage to the fashion and performance of drag for decades before either of your crusty bodies came into this world. If you can’t respect queer bodies and queer people, then your opinion on this matter is truly irrelevant, as this event is about queers supporting queers in queer spaces doing queer things–none of which needs your validation to do the good work it does. Enjoy your crusty existence supporting the structures of privilege that keep men in power and keep queers (and women) quiet, you despicable excuse for a feminist.

 

Jeanne Smith:
Nolan Petersen I would not risk subjecting myself to this kind of abuse if it weren’t for the fact that gender-identity ideology is erasing women and the work we have done to protect ourselves from the effects male privilege and it’s enforcement corollary, male violence against women, and effeminate men who violate the “man box.” And what is being done to non-gender-conforming children is just horrific. Children are being given hormones that cause cancer and mitochondrial damage in order to make them conform to the heterosexual sex caste system, along with mutilating surgeries which have their own set of risks.

(Link HERE)
AND:
http://www.newstatesman.com/…/how-society-failing
And why do “queer” people have a special right to their own spaces when women apparently do not have that right within the gender ideology universe. I am a student at UI and I have been trying to find safe space for women and it does not exist. When I type “women” into the UI search engine what comes up is the alphabet soup of LGBTQ. Women are being erased because gender ideology erases the distinction between biological sex and the gender roles that are violently imposed on boys and girls as they are growing up within this rapist culture. Sex is not gender. Sex is a physical reality, gender is a social construct. Nobody is born with the wrong social construct in their brain.

I looked up the Women’s Resource and Action Center and learned that “people of all identities” are welcome. Which means men who changed their surface appearance in order to look like the stereotype of the rapable sex class. They talk about “violence” and erase the fact that the violence is overwhelmingly done by male against females with the intent of keeping females subservient and afraid. I went to the Rape Victims Advocacy Center to find support for my post-incest issues and was informed that I have to share my support group with men who were raised as members of the rapist class who superficially look like women. When I write to these agencies or to the “Gender Studies Department” (women deleted, violence mentioned generally and not attributed to males and male privilege with women as the target) or the Daily Iowan to ask what the fuck is going on I am not even afforded the dignity of a reply. Who is silencing whom here?

I like people who aren’t hetereosexual. I don’t want anyone to be harmed by male violence, by not fitting into the “man box.” I am not the problem. I did my work to dismantle the sex caste system But, I don’t like it when gay men co-opt female culture, especially the parts that symbolize our slavery, and fetishize parts of female bodies in order to objectify and degrade females.

Have I made myself clear?
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Reading Daly, 30 Years On

imagesFrom my journal, October 26, 2016:

It is fucking hard to be rereading Mary Daly’s Gyn/Ecology thirty years on from the first time I read her and to realize that I had the “answers” and the analysis and yet I could not avoid being eaten alive by the forces of the sadostate.  I descended into the phallocratic underworld and completely lost my way and my self. Which was the main point of all the violence – to consign me to a living death.

Within the sadostate women are ontologically undermined, for the sadointent is the conversation of female participation in Be-ing into mere being, that is, the conversion of women into things, and into complicity and thinghood. To the extent that phallic lust succeeds, women are reduced to nonbe-ing.

Robert Whitaker’s book Mad In America:The Enduring Mistreatment of the Mentally Ill partly woke me up in 2008 and sent me along a path of healing; facing my addiction to the behavior-control chemicals that I was prescribed by doctors who were apparently attempting to partially euthanize me. They were trying  to shut me up about having been raped and battered by my father for the first 12 years of my life.  I did manage to free myself from the drug straitjacket, tapering carefully from the behavior-control chemical cocktail slowly over the course of 4 years.

images-1Whitaker went over the some of the same material as Daly, chronicling the rise of gyno/genocidal psychiatry – it’s connections to eugenics and Nazi medical experiments and the mass murder of mental patients during WWll in Germany, but Daly’s words were absent from my damaged brain in 2008, my memory wiped clean by the chemicals and the psychiatric trauma I had endured. And so I wasn’t able to see the whole picture and make the connection that psychiatry is one front, a major one, in the war on women.

There is indeed a war on women. There is a force in this culture, in all of the civilizations on the planet, (except the most primitive and endangered) that absolutely HATES women and nature and wants us silenced, bound and gagged, controlled, tortured, eliminated, made into a lifeless plastic substitute. I have been encountering it everywhere, but I have been unable to name it or see the connections between the various manifestations. I kept taking it personally, kept blaming myself for my difficulties.

Most people really are asleep, are sleepwalking through their lives, automatically acting out atrocities. unaware of the violence they do to themselves, to women and children, to the living planet.

SO -what was I expecting from enlightenment? I guess I was expecting peace and joy and freedom, not this creeping sense of horror upon finding myself awake in the middle of the mass nightmare we call civilization.

I spoze I could go back to the professional  euthanizers and have them chemically neutralize me again.

Nah. I’d rather be awake and aware and in pain than be one of the zombies walking around with their eyes glued to their smartphones, oblivious to the horror raining down all around us.
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Tranz Trances, Session 4

I decided that I would reprint a recent exchange that I had with an individual in the comments section of an article that was published in The Daily Iowan, the student newspaper  at the Unversity of Iowa.:

276f737800000578-3033363-image-m-476_1428680465442Individuals of all shapes, sizes, genders, and sexual orientations strutted down a runway in heels in Hubbard Park on Thursday night for a good cause.

STRUT, a fashion show sponsored by Gamma Rho Lambda, University of Iowa Trans Alliance, Delta Lambda Phi, oSTEM (Out in STEM), and Spectrum UI gave people the opportunity to compete in a fashion show, with proceeds going to support United Action for Youth, a nonprofit that provides youths with a safe space and support in the area and have specific support for the LGBTQ community.

Individuals could pay $3 to wear heels and walk the runway or pay $10 to compete in categories including Hawkeye Pride, Executive Realness, Futuristic Fantasy, Throwback Thursday, Frightening Fierceness, and Glamazonian Glitter Extravaganza.

“We were actually inspired by a documentary, Paris is Burning. It’s a documentary that follows this idea of ball culture, which is a piece of queer history,” said Ben Ross, the president of Delta Lambda Phi. “Basically, people would get together and perform in various categories in celebration of being queer, and the documentary kind of profiles that.”

Ross said the other events of the week have been well-attended and supported.

“We connect teens to the community through art and music, and we provide a safe space — a place where people can express themselves and feel safe doing so,” said Jamie Ellis, a youth-development specialist for the United Action for Youth.

Ellis said it’s important to provide support and listen to LGBTQ youth, because it can be a challenging time in life.

Lydia Zhu, the winner of the first part of the STRUT competition, said she came to the event to support a good cause and a great community. It was not her first time on the runway.

“I was part of the Walk it Out board for the past few years at the University of Iowa, so I have some experience with stage walking,” she said.

Her best advice to people ready to strut down the runway is to “Be confident in yourself, because it shows. As long as you’re confident, other people will feel it, too.”

This is my comment and replies to my comment:
Jeanne Smith:

I am a 63 year old grandmother. In 1985 I sued my father for sexually assaulting me for the first 12 years of my life. I lost the suit in courts run by men, but I went to the legislature and changed the laws on child sexual abuse. I was part of the movement to shelter battered and raped women from the 70’s onward. It’s from this perspective that I am writing.

I wonder how the college and Iowa City community would feel about a group of white men who dressed in blackface and sang spirituals and ragtime all the while saying it was a celebration of their own culture. I believe people would find it offensive to celebrate the oppression of former slaves and current victims of police violence.

woman-falling-off-heelsThe stereotypes that this group is so cheerfully co-optating and celebrating are formulated by men to suit men’s tastes. Male privilege is what determines fashions and appropriate behavior for females. Male privilege creates and enforces what is known as “femininity.” Being feminine has nothing to do with being female. The “fashion” of high heels is all-of-a-piece with the “fashion” of female footbinding. We used to call high heels “rape shoes” because they impede a woman’s ability to avoid assault by running away.

Rape culture is rampant on college campuses. I am wondering why it’s ok to celebrate rape culture and the fetishization of female body parts. This type of display by groups that are supposedly all about sexual freedom makes me believe that it’s just the same old patriarchy in a dress. In order to create sexual equality between men and women so that gender roles become irrelevant we need to work toward the passage of an Equal Rights Amendment for women, ensure equal pay, childcare and reproductive freedom for women, and an end to rape culture. It’s time to shrink male privilege, not put on high heels and stagger down a runway.

Nolan Petersen: Vice Chair at Delta Lambda Phi Alumni Association

This event was sponsored by a number of organizations, including organizations of women. Additionally, heels are not exclusively female, and to present them as such is ignorant of the history female impersonation and cross-dressing have in the queer community.
And finally, this was a fundraiser for a local youth organization which supports young people in the community who are gender or sexuality minorities, and if you have a problem with a drag show for charity then perhaps you are the one with priorities in the wrong place.
Nolan Petersen:

Also, as someone who wants to say that being feminine is much more than fashion, you are putting a lot of emphasis in how wearing heels is co-opting femininity, when in fact many of the gay men of which put together this event wear heels in their personal lives because gender normative clothing is an exhausting and outdated cultural restriction.

I don’t disagree, though, that men have put expectations on women and the female body in the form of fashion ‘rules’ and expectations, which have harmed and assaulted women for generations. This event, however, was pulling from the gender queering of drag, not the normative and damaging aspects of male-dominated ‘women’s fashion’s.

 

Jeanne Smith:

Nolan Petersen ,The fact that women were involved just proves Mary Daly’s contention about female tokens, i.e., fembots who parrot the patriarchal line: “Look! They do it to themselves!” And thus men are absolved of their responsibility for rape culture.
 Jeanne Smith:


Editor Ruth Barrett writes: “This anthology brings together voices of more than forty six contributors celebrating female embodiment while exploring deeper issues of misogyny, violence and sexism in gender identity politics today, demonstrating the intentional silencing and erasure of living female realities.

These perspectives come at a time when gender politics and profits from an emerging medical transgenderism industry for children, teens, and adults inhibits our ability to have meaningful discussions about sex, gender, changing laws that have provided sex-based protections for women and girls, and the re-framing of language that erases females as a distinct biological class.

Through researched articles, essays, first-hand experience, story telling, and verse, these voices are needed to ignite the national conversation about the politics of gender-identity as a backlash to feminist goals of liberation from gender stereotypes, oppression and sexual violence.”

In different voices, this compendium of articles shows how transgenderism is erasing the reality of what it means to be a woman. There are some marvelous essays in Female Erasure that make this book the recent go-to analysis of gender identity as “an inherently misogynist idea.” Read the writings by medical and psychological professionals who tell us about the wrongs their professions have inflicted on transitioners, including children; the accounts of women caught in the vicious cycle of transitioning and the stories of young lesbians pressured to be ABF (Anything But Female); and the narratives of wives of men who would be women, wives who learned the hard way that “women are [not] actually real to these men.” These are only a few of the meaningful essays in this anthology that address the current travesty of gender identity orthodoxy. ~ Janice G. Raymond

 

Nolan Petersen:

Transplaining? Yeah, your erasure of Trans identifies and Trans women in history is so progressive and ultra feminist of you. And Michelle, I only thank people who don’t insist on erasing the existence of my queer Brothers and Sisters to make a point–which Jeanne couldn’t help herself from doing. I won’t stand by and let bigoted womyn ruin an event which was created to celebrate diversity, support young, queer youth, and pay homage to the fashion and performance of drag for decades before either of your crusty bodies came into this world. If you can’t respect queer bodies and queer people, then your opinion on this matter is truly irrelevant, as this event is about queers supporting queers in queer spaces doing queer things–none of which needs your validation to do the good work it does. Enjoy your crusty existence supporting the structures of privilege that keep men in power and keep queers (and women) quiet, you despicable excuse for a feminist.

 

Jeanne Smith:

Nolan Petersen I would not risk subjecting myself to this kind of abuse if it weren’t for the fact that gender-identity ideology is erasing women and the work we have done to protect ourselves from the effects male privilege and it’s enforcement corollary, male violence against women, and effeminate men who violate the “man box.” And what is being done to non-gender-conforming children is just horrific. Children are being given hormones that cause cancer and mitochondrial damage in order to make them conform to the heterosexual sex caste system, along with mutilating surgeries which have their own set of risks.

(Link HERE)
14681617_1819079668330133_3076915616078858266_nAND:
http://www.newstatesman.com/…/how-society-failing

And why do “queer” people have a special right to their own spaces when women apparently do not have that right within the gender ideology universe. I am a student at UI and I have been trying to find safe space for women and it does not exist. When I type “women” into the UI search engine what comes up is the alphabet soup of LGBTQ. Women are being erased because gender ideology erases the distinction between biological sex and the gender roles that are violently imposed on boys and girls as they are growing up within this rapist culture. Sex is not gender. Sex is a physical reality, gender is a social construct. Nobody is born with the wrong social construct in their brain.

I looked up the Women’s Resource and Action Center and learned that “people of all identities” are welcome. Which means men who changed their surface appearance in order to look like the stereotype of the rapable sex class. They talk about “violence” and erase the fact that the violence is overwhelmingly done by male against females with the intent of keeping females subservient and afraid. I went to the Rape Victims Advocacy Center to find support for my post-incest issues and was informed that I have to share my support group with men who were raised as members of the rapist class who superficially look like women. When I write to these agencies or to the “Gender Studies Department” (women deleted, violence mentioned generally and not attributed to males and male privilege with women as the target) or the Daily Iowan to ask what the fuck is going on I am not even afforded the dignity of a reply. Who is silencing whom here?

I like people who aren’t hetereosexual. I don’t want anyone to be harmed by male violence, by not fitting into the “man box.” I am not the problem. I did my work to dismantle the sex caste system But, I don’t like it when gay men co-opt female culture, especially the parts that symbolize our slavery, and fetishize parts of female bodies in order to objectify and degrade females.

Have I made myself clear?

angry-old-woman

October 17, 2016

Journal Entry

Feeling comfortably detached as I wait here for the end of the world.

I’m in an odd place because I left behind all the guideposts I used to rely on to explain the world and shape my views and behavior. I have gone into the Outer Darkness, far beyond what I leaned from all the philosophers and gurus and I don’t believe ANY of it anymore. I see now that ALL of it was presented from the male point of view, everything I learned, everything I read, except for the work of a few feminist authors and teachers.

The only teaching that has any value is the one that directs me to become aware of my body and my breathing and to work on maintaining my awareness in the present, here and now.

I am keenly aware of just how powerless I am to affect what is happening on this planet. Some moments I desperately want to be released from this disaster, but at others, like right now, I’m just grateful that my own little life makes some sense and has beauty in it.

It would be great to stop taking patriarchy so personally.The whole point of rape culture is to reduce me to an object, a non-agent. My “beingness,” my uniqueness, my personhood is irrelevant.

Men seek revenge on women because men can’t have babies. This is the whole primal truth of the matter. This truth is rabidly suppressed, just like the truth about climate change and the mass die-off of pollinators from industrial petrochemicals, for instance. These are truths that I am never allowed to speak aloud in public. People do not want to hear it. It makes them uncomfortable to hear the truth.

I spoze I need to write another blogpost about this – about Marge Piercy’s conjecture that technology will solve this problem of male jealousy over women’s reproductive capacity by growing babies in artificial wombs and shooting up men with female hormones so they can breastfeed, as she proposed in her book, Woman On The Edge Of Time. Tranzing is the tech solution to inequality between the sexes and this is a problem because medical science and technology are capitalist, masculinist enterprises and as such, don’t particularly care about women and the natural world, which are simply “resources” that exist to make profit from.

I’m coming to accept that I’m not responsible for patriarchy. I didn’t cause it and I can’t cure it, as they say around the 12-step groups that deal with addiction. It seems that my yelling at the delusional masses in online forums (and frantic emails to former women-only spaces like rape crisis centers that now permit men who say they are women into their support groups) is just my attempt to blow off steam in my mind-shattering grief over what is taking place,  over the harm that is being done to women and the very basis of life on earth, and for all the life that is being lost.

The violence that I have been subjected to throughout my life from this rapist culture gave me a distorted sense of responsibility. I am not responsible for patriarchy and it’s brainless, gynocidal,  SUICIDAL ecocide.

A patriarchal family is a slave family and is a shame-based family because shame is what molds people into slavery. All of the implied and actual violence is deliberate and intended to produce shame within individuals such that they are unable to stop the violence. The Circle of Death.

I am still coping with the injuries I sustained in my marriage. The man I married is an automaton who acts out a rigid role. I used to explain his behavior by the fact that he grew up with an alcoholic father. I did not exist as a living, autonomous sentient being. I was also only a ROLE, an object, an economic unit, as he actually stated about me and our children. I was a function and a means to his own ends.

About a year ago I was trying to write about addiction and slavery and attachment theory and was unable to find the heart in it…because I was not consciously considering the role of male supremacy and rape culture. Male privilege is always the elephant in the living room. It’s the silent oppressive fog that surrounds all of our social structures. So I wasn’t able to put together the severed parts, I had a jumble of facts, but the essence was missing.

Ten thousand years of female slavery shaped the relations between my ex-husband and me. He was grown the same way that my father and brothers and all males are made, secure in their positions of dominance over women and their right to our labor, our bodies, the products of our wombs, our care and attention.

I could not be a moral agent until I was able to walk away from all of this. I could not be responsible until I was able to separate myself from the constant violence from males that shaped my choices. Instead of being sorrowful I know I need to be grateful that I woke up and that I have this opportunity to come to real life, to the real world, dying as it is. I still have this moment of autonomy and clarity.

 

 

 

 

One Woman And The Truth

muriel“What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life?
The world would split open.”

Muriel Rukeyser

Since all indications point to the fact that we are living in a virtually inescapable trap that I have come to call The Patrix , and that this trap, this machine,  is busily in the process of destroying all capacity of the Earth to sustain life, I have decided it is time for me to lay out my own truth.  There is nothing left to lose. It is time to split the world open.

 Deconstructing The Patrix

The Patrix (a Gaia University coinage meaning the ‘patriarchal matrix’ or matrix of oppression) is an ever present, potent and frequently invisible shape-maker of human cultures. It consists of thousands of dysfunctional thought patterns (memes) that function as a mutually supporting complex, interlocking system. These memes are installed in our individual, community, and cultural operating systems sometimes by contagion or by accident, and more often by patterns of oppression.

Silencing

sad-depressed-little-girl-sitting-near-wall-grunge-34480298My father threatened me over and over that if I told anyone what he was doing to my body that I would lose my family. To a three-year-old child this is nothing less than a death threat, a threat that I would be ostracized out in the wilderness and die of starvation. He was not lying to me. I have lost my entire family, the one I was born into as well as the one that I created from my body, because I would not shut up about being raped and beaten by my father, from early infancy until my mother died of DES-related cervical cancer when I was twelve years old.

When I first began blogging in 2012 it was my hope to be able to post actual entries from my daily journal online. I chose not to do this out of concern for the privacy of family members with whom I still maintained contact. But I have had to separate myself from even these individuals because they continued to be abusive toward me.

I will be placing these entries under their own heading (My Journal) in order to distinguish them from my other work and interests.

So, here goes:

October 8, 2016

My first though upon waking this morning was about the similarity between my daughter’s and my mother’s behavior,  how I cringed in their presence,  how they made me feel inferior and unsafe and unwanted. They both very much wanted me dead.

I woke up this morning with the thought that my parents actually tortured me. I am who and what I am because of the torture I endured throughout  my childhood. This is why I always resonated with stories about what the worldwide androcratic religion has done to women everywhere throughout history – murdering widows in India,  butchering vulvas in Africa and the Near East, burning “witches” during The Enclosure Movement of the Middle Ages. It is because I physically lived this kind of mindbinding torture every day of my childhood.

All of the torture was intended to prepare me for an adulthood of being eaten alive, exploited and then discarded by men and by my children.

It wasn’t persona,  and it wasn’t even particularly conscious – it was reflexive on the part of my caretakers. Because, of course, my mother had,  herself,  been tortured and exploited all through her own life.

ww1-d-533-shame-jpgThe way I see it now we were of the social class known as “cannon-fodder.” Boys were raised to be fighters and soldiers in the endless patriarchal wars of acquisition of land, women and resources, and girls were raised to service the soldiers. This was fairly explicit. I was beaten many times for screwing up household chores and told I would be subject to the same from my future husband if I didn’t straighten up. And I watched my father beat my mother over and over for minor infractions of household service.

That was the pattern. So, of course I blindly married into a military family (my father-in-law was a veteran, both brothers-in-law were lifetime military men,)  even though MY soldier wore a white collar and became a different kind of government functionary. He axed people’s jobs instead of their throats.

All humans are now under a spell brought about by deep conditioning and virtually nobody is awake and aware and able to act freely. My recurring childhood nightmare of being the only one left alive after the bomb falls seems to literally true. It’s as if I am the only one awake in a world full of automatons.

I knew it as a child, I knew it then and I know it now. I have been frantically searching for others who are awake. I see a spark sometimes, but these moments fade quickly and they add to my despair. No-one seems to be able to maintain the fire of truth and PRESENCE. The conditioning we are subjected to all our lives is absolute.

The Target

What I am remembering ia always being my mother’s target, never knowing when she would, without warning, reach out and slap me hard across the face. I never knew what behavior would make her hit me. I was always in a heightened state of tension, just waiting for the blows. The cruelty of this was that my anxiety would make me clumsy and that enraged her even more.

And there was the torture of the “medical procedures” I was subjected to, for instance the frequent enemas and  being laid naked on the floor to be swathed in the sulfur laden cotton batting they was supposed to heal the rash between my legs. (I had that rash from my father’s beard as he rubbed my genitals and inner thighs raw, but I was under threat of death not to tell.) The torture of the sexual abuse and being held responsible for this abuse and all of the drudging housework I was forced to do for my father and brothers, because I was female and my mother was dying of cancer from DES exposure (Which was a form of medicalized male violence against women.)

Psychopaths

My father was a psychopath in a culture designed and forcible perpetuated by psychopaths. The worst thing about this for me was that my brutal early conditioning led me to become the victim of these types of individuals throughout my life, from my lovers, my husband, the pill-proffering doctors, my own children. The behavior seems so familiar. I misinterpret the words and actions of these people as care and concern because I was dependent on monsters for food and shelter as a child. The attentions of vampires feel like love.

My ex-husband and my last and only lover after him were both this type of man. They were identical in their beliefs about their natural entitlement and my existence as an object to be exploited for personal gain. I am still not clear about how both of my daughters came to be psychopaths. The closest explanation I can come up with is the dynamic that exists throughout patriarchy whereby daughters witness their mothers being tortured and are tortured BY their mothers in many cases. Girl children react to this by dis-identifying with their mothers and holding rage toward them.

juryI kept trying to force my daughters to look at all of this. But the damage was too deep. They refuse to see the pattern. My daughters are ruined. They will never emerge from the evil enchantment they are under. They will never question who are the actual agents of the destruction. They won’t even face the fact that the destruction has taken place, that it was deliberate and calculated. That is was done by my grandfather, who protected his pedophile son and paid for the doctors and lawyers who testified against me in court when I was nine years old. It was done by my father, by their alcoholic grandfather, by their own narcissistic father, by the cops and the judges and the doctors and the CEO’s and politicians.

Internecine Destruction

Patriarchy has won its internecine battle and all life on Earth is now threatened with extinction.I am now able to make the connection that the abuse and torture that we were all subjected to as schoolkids was directly analogous to what was happening “in private” in my house. We were continually threatened with mass annihilation, we were controlled on the minutest levels by ritual shaming and the threat of humiliation if we stepped out of line.

That’s what the nuke drills were intended to do to the entire population. This was the purpose behind being put in restrictive desk seats in precise rows inside of concrete and brick boxes. Patriarchal terrorism at it’s finest: domestic abuse in the home, psychological torture in the schools.

 

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