Notes on the Journey



The following is an open, public letter that I am addressing to a man who calls himself Violet Louisa Austerlitz. Mr. Austerlitz is a man I met through my association with The Iowa City Press Coop.  The Iowa City Press Coop is a division of Public Space One, 

Before I moved to Iowa City I considered myself completely open and accepting of all the various sexual orientations. I believed in the concept of “live and let live” and still believe that ADULT people have a right to modify their bodies any way they choose to.

In 2013 I moved to Iowa City and into the River City Housing Cooperative,  The Coop had a supposedly “feminist” way of conducting business which included going around the room and stating our preferred pronouns at the beginning of every house meeting. This was done to respect the feelings of the men and women who lived there who were pretending to be the opposite sex.

I really did believe the transgender phenomenon was  harmless and I had and have no personal quarrel with people who think this is a legitimate thing to be acting out, whether by full sexual mutilation and sterilization or just by cross-dressing and affecting the manners of the opposite sex. And in fact, I owe Mr. Austerlitz a debt of gratitude for being the catalyst that brought me around to peak trans and metaphorically cleared the scales from my eyes about what is really going on inside the transgender cult.

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Violate Louisa Austerlitz

I met Mr. Austerlitz, as I said, at the Iowa City Press Coop where I participated in workshops on printmaking. Mr. Austerlitz is a tall, blonde, balding white male who was born into and socialized into male privilege. At first glance I assumed he was an effeminate gay man.  (Actually, I believe he IS an effeminate gay man, which is why he claims status in the LGBTQ community. But, in the fun logical world of the transcult,  when a man says he is really a woman it does not make the man heterosexual in his attraction to men, it makes him GAYER than ever!) (If I am mistaken and Mr. Austerlitz is not attracted to other males, then apparently, when a straight guy decides to declare himself female, this instantly makes him a lesbian……which also, conveniently, is justification for Mr. Austerlitz to use the LGTBQ flag as a selling point for his pedestrian artwork.) I was expected to accept that this man’s simple declaration that he is female is sufficient to erase his ingrained sense of superiority over actual XX genital natal females and all the years of living as an entitled white male evaporate like smoke. (POOF! Tranzmajik!!!)

And I was STILL willing to tolerate being gaslighted by the other members who referred to him as SHE and subtly pressured me to lie or face ostracism. Because I wanted to do art and I wanted to belong to the group.


But, then it happened. I received an email from one of the key people at ICPC that ICPC was invited to do art workshops with a day camp for girls called Girls Rock.  I was informed in this email that TRANS were welcome to participate. This stopped me up short. I thought…isn’t rather fucked up to present the idea to girls that if they don’t like their bodies or the social role they are expected to fulfill that all they have to is chop off their tits and have a phalloplasty and – VOILA! – Instant Boy!

I decided to confront my concerns head-on and wrote to the members of ICPC. The “head” of ICPC, John Engelbrecht was dispatched to send an email reading me the riot act. He proposed that I come in and discuss it with the group. I decided that was not acceptable, since I am just one traumatized old lady and I was not able to go fight all by myself for the truth in a group that was opposed to every word I might say. Unfair conditions. And so I walked away.

I did manage to confront Girls Rock over this issue, although they are still promoting this anti-female ideology instead of helping girls accept their bodies and their sexuality.

Confronting The Problem Head-On

I have been feeling bad recently because I am judging myself for not being able to handle this matter in a direct, adult manner; I was afraid of being ostracized and of having to take the heat generated by my outspoken convictions all by myself. But, I’ve decided that what I need to do now is to be as public and confrontive as I can manage and look the problem right in the face.  However, first I need to get something straight. In a way, it seems as if my own propensities and passions and the lessons and wrong turns of my journey have been perfectly crafted for me to grapple with the transcult here in Iowa City. But I am not doing this because I believe I can save anybody or that my activism can can prevent our imminent extinction from climate collapse or even help us solve our universal sex hierarchy/sexual violence problem as we wait for the end.  I’m doing it out of gut necessity. From my SOUL. Because fucking with children’s genitals is the worst crime in the universe and I can’t sit around in silence watching children being harmed this way.

My Public Letter To Violate Louisa Austerlitz
(I call him “Violate” because he is violating female integrity):

v.a.2Dear Mr. Austerlitz,

I understand that you are just one more narcissistic male and that you have the (patriarchal) god-given right to act out whatever misogynistic fantasies float your boat. When I first saw you back in 2015 I I thought you were a typical effeminate gay man with an “affectation” and people were calling you “SHE” in the affected way people refer to drag queens and effeminate gay men as “SHE” knowing full well they are men.

But then the gaslighting began and I was subtly pressured into referring to you as “SHE” when in fact this is a bald-faced lie. I avoided having to lie by referring to you by your fake name rather than saying “SHE” and participating in the gaslighting. You are free to be any kind of destructive asshole you want to be and I have no control over that, but it HORRIFIES me that the “community” is enabling your lie while suppressing the voices of gender critical women like me.

I lived at the River City Housing Coop with people who were pretending to be the opposite sex and I believed this was a harmless lifestyle choice. But soon after I joined the Iowa City Press Coop I began to realize that body-hatred and lies about basic biology were being sold to young girls as some kind of liberating lifestyle option.

Then I did a little research and realized that doctors are poisoning gender non-conforming children with powerful, untested chemicals such as lupron, stopping their normal puberty and then mutilating their healthy sex parts in order to make them APPEAR to be the opposite sex. They are not changing anyone’s sex because sex chromosomes are in every cell in a person’s body and even under the influence of artificial corporate sex chemicals the body will struggle to retain its original integrity.

What the gender doctors ARE doing is chemically sterilizing (rendering the child unable to conceive children in adulthood) and then mutilating the child’s genitals. This results in an inabilty of the genitals to experience the sensation of sexual pleasure. Nice.

Puberty blockers cause brain and bone damage. Boys and girls who don’t fit into the sadomasochistic sex role hierarchy are being made into EUNUCHS.

What does any of this have to do with you, Mr. Violate Louisa Austerlitz? This is all taking place so that you, as a privileged white male, can enjoy your self-obsessed, opportunistic little HOAX,  your male ego trip,  your gaslighting power play,  your misogynistic charade.

39811067_10156573534564844_1405198348746489856_nI call you out as an abuser of children and a violator of female integrity. I hold you personally responsible for the eugenic medical experiments that are being done on gender non-conforming children and for the violation of female integrity and the disappearance of protected female-only spaces. I curse your fake name and your evil existence.

Jeanne Allyn Smith

















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